Sitting in here alone glazing at these for walls, watching the day fade away to night, drinking vodka to drown my sea of sorrows and what doe’s it all come down too? just wating for the certain change that might happen that will give me a another chance in life, a certain change that will give me a boost in life, that will make me feel,i’m living life to the full but I think the wating has gone to long. I just want to leave everything and everyone behind I really am sick off caring when no one shows it back. I feel recently that I have been talked about behind my back from “close” friends but the thing that makes me not care is that I know who I am. I know what I want in life. I choose who I want to be around. But one thing I can’t control is other peoples opinions. I can’t control how people feel. I have decied to back off and stop caring. Feeling this horrible pain inside me is drivng me insane. I really do feel I’m going to be stuck like this for another year. I just want to start my life again.